Afraid to hear what you don't want to hear

There is no question in my mind, that just like the rest of you, I want to live in a country, a world, without hatred-without hunger, with out wars, conflicts, etc.etc...but as I grow older, I have a responsibility, to myself, more than any one, to search for answers-answers to things that don't make sense..this-I find to be a challenge:

Those of you who know me, family and friends-maybe neighbors-co workers-maybe one of my blog readers, know that I'm quite emotional and sensitive-very giving, and if I could, would save the world-sadly- I CAN'T..

So I know how it must feel, when I introduce a possiblity, and at this point, ONLY, a possibility, maybe a hypothesis, to some maybe a theory-of why things happen in this world.

I hate to admit, that given that I'm a woman, somewhat from what I've heard from others, an "attractive" woman (to which I thank you)- a woman that loves to laugh loud, loves to dance, party, scream, maybe get a little crazy, I feel that I'm not taken seriously-even though, I have an engineering degree, have seen many parts of the world, love different people, regardless of race, color, sex, or wealth-and simply, can I say intelligent?? there!! I said it!! lol...yet, many-YOU don't even give me a minute, to what I think!! it used to hurt, now it's just a dissapointment..

It is true, that most of the time, when it comes to ideas about what government does, what people do, what man does, I don't have concrete evidence-THAT IS-I have not seen it with my two eyes...! I agree!! all I ask of you is to QUESTION EVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERYTHING!! EVerything...

So if I talk about something that seems so savage, so cruel, so uncalled for, barbaric-!do not over look it-just because it would be too painful should it be true...I get it..! I'm like YOU>>>!! I swear!

So just expose yourself, to what could be-what may-BE...but hope not to be..you owe it to yourself...and if you think I'm crazy..so be it..but if even when you decide I am crazy, you have searched for yourself what I'm speculating-------------- then I've done my job!!